Wait, what?
And so my journey begins. Now this, of course, did not literally happen despite the fact that it figuratively is very much alive and well at the moment. I'll give a brief background to help set the stage for you. I have obligations. My beautiful wife of six years stays home and raises our wonderful three children (5, 3, and 7 months). We have a mortgage, car payment, and student loans. We are, for all intents and purposes, an All-American family. And I have worked basically in Finance for the last decade. There have been many ups and downs along the way but we have always been more than adequately provided for financially.
So I quit my job.
Not the, I won the Powerball quit my job, or the got in at the ground floor of a network marketing company quit my job, not even a took a better opportunity kind of quit my job. Nope. But rather the I have absolutely nothing lined up, no hot leads, nothing on the horizon, this makes no sense kind of quit my job. Why would you do that? You have a family to feed! Are you crazy? I would never do that! Believe me, these are all things that went through my head as well...and many more I can assure you. But, oddly enough, there were a tremendous number of whole-hearted supporters along the way on this one. First and foremost being the aforementioned beautiful wife. She wants the best for me no matter what and is willing to do anything and everything necessary to accommodate that. Also, my parents were extremely encouraging following this tough decision. We have a few close friends who are able to understand the rationale behind the seemingly rash decision. There have also been a significant amount of 'random' people to affirm the decision along the way. More on that another time.
It's only been a few weeks since the decision to leave my job was made and while it simply feels like a long vacation on some days, it feels like the never-ending pit of despair at other fleeting moments. Let's get more into the why behind the decision. Simply put, we made the decision to put our money where our mouth was by trusting in the providence and sovereignty of God. We, my family and I, believe that our God is alive and actively interested in every aspect of our lives. We believe that the Bible is His infallible word and that it's truth is definitively that: truth. So, I found myself needing to become more reliant on Him and not just say that I trust He will provide, but to actually live in that trust. I do, however, want to clarify that I am not kicking back on the couch watching Netflix and checking the mailbox for my checks from God. I am actively seeking employment but am simultaneously seeking God's will for my life and trusting that He will direct my path. Also, as with most challenging situations, this is genuinely helping me better learn how to pray. I think I know the type of environment that I would like to work in and even the corporate family by which I would like to be employed. However, I'm now praying that the desires of my heart coincide with the direction He has for my life.
So here we are, free falling. And, while we're losing proverbial altitude financially, we're gaining intestinal fortitude by way of faith. Hard to put a price tag on that.
Have there been times in your life where, looking back, you realize God was positioning you for something greater than you ever imagined in the moment? Share that encouragement with others; it may be just what someone needs to hear right now.
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Jefferson
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